Video Creator’s Channel Chrissie Mayr
Because Your Dad Was A Drummer Was He Was
he kind of and he’s probably around drugs and like that fun lifestyle As a parent was he very much like stay away from drugs like was he giving it to you straight or no It was just kind of like He wanted me to do good. He was kind of like one of those pen that was a really smart very like nerdy Kid growing up. I read a lot of books. I did I got like straight a’s up until high school and then I kind of like lost my bleep like halfway through high school. The anxiety started getting really bad but anyway.
I was a very like nerdy studious Kid who was constantly reading my dad loved that and he was like yeah. I want you to be really smart. Get scholarships go to college. Do all that stuff but he was very much just like and we were left to our own devices so much and we’re just he I’ve seen my dad do coke, I’ve seen him take pills, Oh yeah yeah yeah, I’ve seen my dad a lot all right.
I Dont Know What It Is
about Coke but like but it’s just that’s a very druggy type drug maybe it feels like it no no you’re not coke is it’s Coke is one of those things that some people can do. I’ve done it twice and i’m it’s not for me. I was not a fan. I I was like. I don’t really understand why people like this but it’s one of those drugs that I think some people can kind of do casually but a lot of people can’t but it’s not quite to like heroin or meth levels You.
Know What I Mean Its Like Between Weed
and heroin. I feel like okay It’s one of those yeah, but it used to be that weed was the gateway drug. I think now Yeah it’s moved up a little bit it’s moved up a bit yeah. My sister was fine when she was just smoking Weed When she was just a little pothead and then she started doing coke and then oh all of a sudden. She’s a meth head and we’re like okay.
Oh No Wow Yeah So Okay
interesting do you feel like your dad or like your your parents kind of well it’s hard to know all you know is is the is the life you’ve led. I was going to say like Yeah. I feel like you would have you leaned towards it more because you saw it around you growing up but no. I would say for me it just desensitized me a little bit to a point where like Oh kind of a lot of these things Aren’t necessarily a big deal and for me it was okay because I got exposed to this stuff and I tried it and then not everything like I’d never did meth or heroin or anything like that like nothing hardcore and I tried. You know I tried a few things and I was like all right.
This Is Whatever And Now I Dont Do
anything like I I’ve had I’m sober from alcohol because I’ve had problems with that but when it came to drugs and stuff like that. I never had any issues and I was like all right. I’ve tried this out some of it’s fun. Some of it’s not so fun and I’m good like I don’t know I was never a. problem for me but and I think a lot of that depends on the person.
My Sister Is Clearly Has A
very addictive personality and drugs Are you know her pretty well alcohol too but drugs are yeah. They bleep her up really bad are you guys close Yeah we were really close growing up so we lost our mom. We were young. I was six. I was almost six and she was three or two two or three.
She was really young and my dad is you know he was off playing his music and doing his thing and he loved us, but he wasn’t like the most attentive parent so and you know he’s. He’s a very sweet man and was always very loving and around and took care of us. But he was just kind of off to whatever he was doing so it was really me and my sister growing up a lot of the time did you feel like you had to kind of take care of her. Oh yeah absolutely and my dad sometimes too felt like I was taking care of my dad Sometimes that’s what happens like yeah your parents aren’t really fully present that it was I was kind of like that way too but like my parents weren’t doing drugs.
They Just Like I Feel Like Emotionally
they needed a lot from me. So in that way. I felt like the roles were reversed, but man that is very young to lose a mom ugh that’s. I mean I feel like Oh man I bleep like. I lost my mom at what was it? I was like 35 30 yeah.
I Was Like 35 No.
34 when I lost my mom and then I like Oh. She got to have her mom until she was 67 and most people have their mom. Until you know I mean they’re like 80s 90s she was like 71. She died but then right like you lost your mom super early so she was young she was I mean I don’t think it matters when you lose your parent it’s going to suck no matter what like it’s going to be yeah that prepares you nothing can probably prepare you you’re just like Oh bleep you just have this flung into space.
Feeling Like You Are Catapulted Into Being On
your own enjoy like you you you have all your memories you’re ever gonna have there’s no more new pictures. of your mom that are gonna come out there’s just like woof There’s no more like them Yeah can’t be like you ever get you ever get. I mean I I didn’t have this because I was so young when I lost her, but I’ve heard other people talk about this have that feeling where something good happens or like she you get excited or you get bad news or whatever and you’re like Oh. I want to call my mom and then that realization hits you that you can’t oh Yeah and it there’s so many days that remind me of her like you think oh it’s just gonna be. She died in August August second, like all right her death day obviously it’s gonna be a thing well, but then her birthday was like in July and then it’s Mother’s day and then it’s my birthday which just.
Happened Im Like Bleep Its So Many
days Oh and now it’s also it’s like also the summer because she just loved summer like that was her that’s when she was sort of like come alive and she’d like go to the pool and like to chat everybody up and then it’s like also new years because there was a funny story from new year’s where she like didn’t know what bottle service was so she was like she just thought everybody had free juice out so she was like Oh have some creditors. I’m like mom that goes with their alcohol that’s not for you so yeah Oh my god though but you lost your mom so early so it’s almost like is it better in a way because you I don’t. I don’t think I have any memories from like being six. I remember very few things about. her I remember a few things like I remember her cleaning.
I Remember One Time My Dad
forgot to pick me up from preschool and so I was the last kid sitting there and my mom runs up all frantically and all frantic and covered in paint because she had just been painting our house or whatever and she like came to get me. I remember that like things like that small things, but not a lot. I remember the night she died really clearly that I do remember. I think probably because it was very traumatic, so you sort of like hold on to that that sort of stuff, but yeah it was fun if you don’t mind me asking it’s okay. It was it was a long time ago, so it definitely.
I Talked About It.
It was a car accident. Oh my God yeah it was one. Of those shitty things where there’s not like anything you can do about it You’re not prepared for it. The people neighbors called the cops because my dad was crying so loud on the porch and that’s what woke me up was my dad crying and then the cops who it’s a small island and everyone knows my dad.
Hes Like One Of Those Really Big
boys Yeah Yeah from Hawaii exactly sorry I feel like I didn’t say that so the cops already knew what happened so they didn’t even come they were just like that’s one of those things everybody knew each other’s business yeah yeah you hear the news. Oh my god wow it’s weird grief does like I I I um never heard my brother cry like he I never saw him. I never heard him make this noise ever in his life, but when it. was like the last time we were going to visit my mom. It was like July.
She Passed In August, So It Was
either like June or just June or July, and he had come out just for like 24 hours. Just to see how bad she had gotten because like I don’t know I think her and my dad and maybe also that the nurse they did a shitty job of communicating like how terminal she was and her timeline and how bad she was getting so I was just like we gotta see like what’s going on here and she was bad and then oh my god. My brother cried it’s not just loud, but like in a way that I’ll never be able to forget and I’m like holy bleep cause it’s like He’s basically saying you’re saying goodbye to an alive person already it’s like you. Just you can tell and she’s yeah like bright and funny lively person that like and like the pieces of her that were that went first were like her personality like her speech because she had a tumor on her vocal motor part of her brain um and so like her speech.
Her Writing Went First Its Like She Could
understand, but she couldn’t really respond and that would frustrate her and like Oh my God Yeah, I’ve like never heard my brother Cry like that like if had it been under different circumstances. I would I should have made fun of him for that cry. It was an ugly cry. It was a whale and I was like damn damn boy.
- feel like dad like
- yeah really young dad
- reading dad loved like
- parent like stay away drugs
- dad drummer kind probably drugs
Its Like That Raw Emotion Coming Out
and like you don’t know especially something like that seeing someone that you love like slip away like that before they’re. Even gone it! I feel like it’s just that raw emotion and how do you get that out? It’s like kids when they cry and freak out and scream it’s because they don’t know how to regulate emotion. They don’t know how to express their emotion and I feel like it’s kind of the similar thing like even though you’re an adult and you sort of.
As a parent was he very much like stay away from drugs like was he giving it to you straight or no It was just kind of like He wanted me to do good.& I was a very like nerdy studious Kid who was constantly reading my dad loved that and he was like yeah.& Get scholarships go to college.& Do all that stuff but he was very much just like and we were left to our own devices so much and we’re just he I’ve seen my dad do coke. I’ve done it twice and i’m it’s not for me. I don’t really understand why people like this but it’s one of those drugs that I think some people can kind of do casually but a lot of people can’t . It’s not quite to like heroin or meth levels You.& know what I mean it’s like between Weed and heroin. It used to be that weed was the gateway drug. I think now Yeah it’s moved up a little bit…. Click here to read more and watch the full video